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October 18th, 2011
October 17th, 2011
October 14th, 2011
October 12th, 2011
I’m going swimming on Saturday :s
for the first time in ages. Problem is, I’m going with my bf and his friends. His friends don’t know anything about my self harm. I have swimming shorts but they’re not that long. I’ve been cutting a lot lately and I’m so afraid of comments/remarks/hate ): Is it better if I not go?
Self Harm Survey
Self Harm Survey Age: 21
Sex: Female
Label yourself (prep, goth, druggie, weirdo, etc.)? Metalhead, weirdo, loner
How long have you been cutting? 7-8 years
Favorite tool? Razorblades
Where (place) do you cut? (school, home, etc.)? Home, school, work
Do you have to hide your whole arm(s) (wrists,forearms,& upper arms etc.)? No. There are a few scars on my upper arm but not very visible
Do you have to wear long-sleeves & long-pants all the time? Long pants yes, my legs are pretty messed up.
Do you cut on your stomach, or chest? Have done that, yes.
Are your legs, arms, & other body parts covered in scars? Both my upper legs and thighs.
What’s your favorite excuse to use when someone asks about a cut? I never get asked.
Have you ever been hospitalized because of your cutting? No, but there were times I should have been.
Off the top of your head, about how many scars do you have? Somewhere around 200/300?
Do you have (diagnosed) depression, and/or bipolar/bpd? My therapist told me I might have bpd, but it isn’t officially diagnosed yet.
Who knows you cut? My boyfriend and some of my friends.
Have you ever been caught cutting? Not in the moment, but have been caught bleeding through my clothes a few minutes afterwards.
Have your parents ever confronted you about a bloody sleeve, or towel? No, never use towels etc.
Did you have a good childhood? Yes, up until about I was 12.
Why do you cut? Depends. Sometimes to punish myself for being the awful person I am. Sometimes to relieve stress or anger. I can’t really deal with emotions in a healthy way.
Have you ever talked to a therapist or counselor? Yes, am in therapy atm.
Do you want to stop cutting (but can’t because of addiction)? At the moment I don’t want to stop cutting.I wouldn’t have the coping mechanisms to ‘survive’
Do you like cutting? No, I fucking hate it.
How many times have you tried to complete suicide? Several times, I think about 5 or 6 times, two of those being very recent.
Do you like watching movies with self-injury? It’s very triggering, makes me uncomfortable.
Do you like looking at pictures of self-injury? Depends on how I feel
Do you sometimes envy other people? (non-self-injurers) Oh yes I do, I would die for a pair of clean, pretty legs.
Have you ever taken any pictures of your cuts/scars? No, never.
Do you want to die? Yes I do.
Have you ever done a school assignment on cutting, or self-injury? No.
What do you like to listen to while cutting/depression/etc.? Usually metal, it helps relieve the anger sometime.
Have you ever needed stitches from cutting? Yes, but didn’t get them, so the scars look horrible.
Do you dream about cutting? Yes, quite often.
What do you use to bandage your cuts? Butterfly bandages and band aids
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October 11th, 2011
FINE
Could you reblog this if you are a self harmer (or have self harmed) and you are older than 20?
I’d like to get to know some people who are around my age. No offense to younger people though, I love you all. <3
October 10th, 2011
October 6th, 2011
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